I am so tired. I mean bone-weary, exhausted, worn out, run down, dead on my feet. Tired. And it's funny because I have done pretty much nothing lately. I finally got around to cleaning out my tub last night & was too tired to even take a nice long soak like I'd planned - my legs were shaky just trying to hold myself up in the shower.

I sleep, a lot. It's all I want to do. Everything hurts - muscles, nerves, joints, hands, knees, hips, back, head, teeth... my eyes hurt, my insides hurt, I hurt inside.

And I've been feeling this way for a year now.

I feel like I've had a low-grade flu for the past year. Can't stay warm, can't relax, but have no energy to do anything at all. All I want to do is lay on the couch & not watch t.v.

I'm on vacation, so I'm also pissed at myself for not doing all the things I'd planned to do - like mop the kitchen. I did manage to commune w/my snakes for a few hours, give 'em baths, clean their tanks, but it wore me out (and it's not like they're big snakes or all that active - Ed's idea of a bath is to lay there in the warm water & blow bubbles from both ends)... I am just so tired. Everytime anyone asks me if I want to do something or go somewhere I can barely lift my head up to give an answer, which is usually, "No, I'm too tired."

I feel like I don't even have enough energy for a decent nervous breakdown. I'd really like for someone to cater to me for a month or so, though. Maybe 2. On a nice warm beach in the British Virgin Islands, drinking mojitos.