Thanks. I just really had to make a choice to change my life even if I wasnt at this point I wanted to be at. I learned while doing this that this was part of the healing. I dont want to stay stuck in my own pain and re hash it again and again if all it did was create this cycle. Ive learned that by working and helping kids in the same situation I was in, I feel more in control over myself. When everything was so out of my control before by helping these kids and going to school there is the element of being in control of this and looking at it.