Hi everyone,

I went to t last week for the first time in several weeks. For the past couple mos. all we talked about was chemo, cancer and surgery. Last week was the first post op appt, and we talked about surgery and recovery. I told him I want to get back on track, and talk about other things Since I have such a difficult time speaking up he asked me to email me the stuff ruminating in my brain.

I did that...we agreed in the past that he didn't have to respond to emails but he has always responded to every email, except this last one. Not even an "OK". It had to do with trust, and how my last T broke my trust. I didn't trash old T or anything, just said a couple things that make me wobbly with trust. I haven't told him anything about old T yet, and I thought it was relevant.

Do you think I offended him? Do T's have a rule of conduct to never speak about each other? I don't believe they know each other.

Anyways, I have an appointment in a couple hours, and I am really worried. I don't know if he read it or not. I don't think I want to talk about it now. I am freaking. I could call and say I'm still not up to par...it wouldn't be lying.