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Feb 08, 2011, 12:57 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2010
Location: New England
Posts: 10,718
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dang...so freaked....here's my email, does it sound offensive? do you think it would upset him? Embarrassment  .
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I have been putting this email off for several days. I don’t know what scares me more, writing down **** I want to talk about or actually talking about it. My thoughts usually flow better in type, but not this week. I keep thinking if I write it then I have to say it. Freaks me out, big time. I’ve been doing this whole “therapy thing” for a few years, one would think I’d be better at it by now. Not so. I have spent a lot of time treading water, just trying to keep from going under. I don’t want to just tread water anymore, I want to swim.
So, what would happen if I started talking about ****? I don’t really know. Little things start to come up and I get off balance, what if something big came up? How would I stay above water? I am so scared. I tried talking about **** with past therapists….didn’t work out so well. I haven’t told you much about that. OLD Tl (the last one) was openly Catholic. I thought it would be a good match because I am sort of spiritual. He thought I was demon possessed. He kept trying to talk me into seeing a priest for exorcism. For a long time I was so scared, every night I would dream of demons. I got scared that if I touched people it would rub off on them. I couldn’t even hug my kids for a while. I know that he was really trying to help, and I honestly liked the guy, so I stuck with him for almost 2 years. Then, last spring, I was freaking out and the pressure was too much, so I called OLD T and told him I needed a break and never went back.
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never mind...
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