I'm feeling teary at the moment which might be PMS. I just want to vent out and I hope you lot can give me advice. Last week I dumped my boyfriend because I was fed up with me being paranoid and he lied to me. I just feel like I wasn't for love. I saw a couple on the train platform thingy while waiting for a train home and the thought "I want to kill myself" came into my mind and they were kissing and it made me jealous. I just hate seeing couples and I thought why should I have a relationship? There's more to life than love and so on. When I was on the train, I wanted to cry because I feel sorry for myself and I feel like I won't have a love in my life. I started pinching myself and I tried to hold back the tears. Little tears came out of my eyes and I wiped them away. I came home and into my room and I started crying and I punched myself in the head. I have discovered something... why do attractive girls have boyfriends? And not me? (Oh my I'm beginning to cry as I type this out) So I must be ugly? Later in life if I don't have a boyfriend, I might as well take my own life. So I'll never get a boyfriend..... I'll be on my own suffering with my mood swings. I just feel like crying forever, This must be PMS because I'm not normally like this. Everyone is sooo lucky because they have boyfriend and girlfriends... I'm just a alien not from this world but from somewhere else. Yeah I'm weird but I feel like I wasn't meant to have a boyfriend. On the other hand, I'm here to be hated and I wish someone could beat me up. I wish I was aborted when I was in my mum's womb. I'm nothing interesting. I'm just a worthless little piece of crap. I'm not going to kill myself, I'll just cry until I have a headache.