well, he hadn't checked his email because he was away, so he hadn't seen my email. I did print it and bring it. And yes, I let him read it.

It was ok. He related it to why I am taking so long to trust him. He acknowledged it was a big step for me to out someone I trusted (ie I have never outed my abusers)
He asked what my biggest fear was, and I told him it was him thinking badly of me (like that I was demon possessed) We also went thru the whole theory...I relayed it to him, since he has no experience with Catholocism. I told him that when someone has sex out of wedlock it opens a door for demons to come in, and since I had that sort of relationship with someone as a child I "caught" demons from him. I kind have to admit, I am so stupid I believed that for a while. But T pointed out that was blaming the child for the Adult's sin....and a loving God wouldn't do that.

light-bulb.

It was a hard hour, but I feel good about it. I teared up a lot, but I didn't sob so I am proud of myself. It was kind of like a gym workout, exhausting, painful and hard to endure, but when your workout is done you're glad you did it because it made you stronger.