I just wanted to say you're not alone - I too have trouble telling the difference between regular feelings and other feelings. I have no baseline for what "normal" feelings are... I've always had bipolar disorder.

As for the money situation, I would be angry too. I would also change my passwords and have a frank discussion with your husband about money. Let him know why you're upset about it. Perhaps if he knows that you're seriously considering going back to school and that his poor decisions are effecting your chance to do so he will change his ways. Good luck!