Kids can be such inocent stressors. Its difficult not to lash out at them. Im glad you found another outlet than harming your child, (not indicating you ever would) but that scares me so. Being in a simular place as yourself, I charish my children and a biggest fear is harming them. Never have, and they are old enough now to understand and "know when to get out of mom's way" hehe. Good luck and make sure you talk to your "T" about all this. ((hugs))