Right now, I sort of have a few thoughts in my head that go like this: I could have just kept on going without therapy, I could have pulled things together like I always have before, who says I needed to go through all that past stuff anyway, and who says I really need therapy OR meds....and yadda yadda. So I have some understanding of your thought process......and I think it's pretty normal, really! When things hurt, and changing ourselves does hurt, being vulnerable does hurt (in a way), we tend to want to resist it or run....the thing to remember is that going on through the pain will lead to healing and to grace and to victory! So, yes, I'm saying I think it will be worth it for you and for me and for anyone who really wants to heal and to change.