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Originally Posted by MELISSSAD81
my t doesnt do email but otherwise she said do what you gotta do to get it(art,writing,etc) out and bring it with you next thursday. I got a book she recommended might spark some thought and I am reading it...kinda dry but good no less. what if I cant figure out what it is that is causing me to revert to being self-destructive? then what do i do?...cancel thursday? she will be very upset with me? goodness she has really got me rattled and uncomfortable and I really HATE this.
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I can understand how pressured you must feel and the anxiety that it provokes. All good stuff to address in your next session...and if you feel the need to reach out to T beforehand to ask if she wants to drop you as a client, then do it. Better than having it stir up even more anxiety that could be getting in the way of trying to accomplish the goal. Therapy is work and is sooooo not easy.
I have found that my most effective times is when I just sit with feelings...at a time/place where I won't be disrupted....and just wait to see what comes up for me - and try to trust what comes up. If you are able to sit with feelings long enough, they will lead the way.
I sometimes start off with something that easily comes to mind...and then as I write about it, it expands and then stirs up other things....which could all be useful in therapy.
I hope you are able to get past this anxiety so you can focus on the task at hand. Easier said than done, I know....