So I finished my 4 day a week, six hours a day, IOP program. I am on 300 mg of Lamictal, and Valium.

I feel like I am not on a roller-coaster ride, but do feel consistently low and overwhelmed. I am now seeing my former therapist once a week. His secretary called and told me that he is sick; won't be able to see me until next week. This really bothered me. Should it have? Am I that dependent on therapy appointments? Does it mean that I need more than once a week therapy?

Also, which is not helping, I feel like my meds need tweaked. I think that I need to be on an anti-depressant besides the Lamictal. Emsam was great for me, and would like to take it again Also, the Valium just makes me too tired. When my pdoc prescribed the Valium, he said "let me know in a week how it works for you." So, I emailed him last week...no response. I finally gave up and stopped the Valium. Today, I sent him another email. I also called his secretary and told her that "I am emotionally unstable and having a difficult time taking care of my children". Still, no response.

How do you guys deal with therapy cancellations, and how do you communicate with your pdocs in-between appointments?

Thanks!