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Originally Posted by rainbow8
I don't know if this is going to come out right, but here's what I want to say. When I post about my sessions, and how open I am with my T, and so on, people tell me how brave I am. I'm afraid that you will get the wrong idea. My issues are so insignificant compared to most of you that I feel guilty for writing about them and for getting support.
My T told me that the things I'm ashamed about are normal. I don't have a history of abuse to process, so I don't feel very brave at all. When I read your stories, I feel such admiration for all of you survivors of such horrendous situations in your past. I know that for you to tell your stories to your T and process trauma is amazingly difficult work. My work pales in comparison.
I just don't want anyone to feel bad because I can seemingly do this hard work and maybe you can't. I know I have my particular issues that are hard for me, like my attachment to my T, and that's why I post here. I hope that is reason enough. I don't want to come across as being better than anyone, either. I feel like I don't deserve all the praise I've been getting.  |
No apology needed, rainbow. We all have our own stuff, our own stories, our own pain and there's no need to compare. Your story, your stuff, your pain is just as significant and real to you as mine is to me, or anyone else's is to them. We can always find someone whose pain is greater or whose suffering seems to have been deeper than ours, and we may be right, but it doesn't mean ours is any less meaningful or valid to us. My T tells me this often, because I too feel as though I have suffered so little really.....and have little claim to sympathy or valid right to tears and pain.
You
have been working hard and you do deserve praise for that, for your willingness to see yourself more truly and to work on growing and changing for the better!
