Rainbow, whenever I think my problems aren't "bad enough" it's a sign of denial. I think it could be the same for you. Your pain is authentic, I can feel it in your posts. I welcome the chance all of you here provide to me by being there to reach out to.
Anyone who suffers deserves kudos for carrying on and fighting the good fight. Sometimes survival is minute to minute. You're still here and IT IS testament to your strengths. SO THERE!