I should be really happy right now because I have been accepted to Atlantic Cape Community College, but I've told people, and no-one else seems to care. Maybe it's just me, but when people say 'oh cool' or just use words...I find that hard to deal with. I learned in my bad childhood that words are sometimes empty and hollow, so I wonder if people really mean it when they say something good about me. I guess I'm rather used to being 'bought off' like I was in childhood "Oh here's a present,I'm sorry I did not show up for your Christmas play"...I have a very hard time also celebrating BY MYSELF, my own successes...I grew up not really being told 'You can do it' or "Yes, someday you will go to college, have a job, live on your own"...I guess it was not alright back in the 1960's to tell an emotionally ill child that they can someday do something special...I feel because of the way I grew up, I missed out on so much like going on trips, having friends, going to concerts as a teenager, dating,...so much that I never got to experience and wanted to..and never really understood why I was so overprotected from being a kid! And yeah, this college thing is cool, but I'm antsy even though I've been accepted..the placement test that all ACCC students are required to take has my stomach in knots,I wonder if the anxiety is a normal thing about that....