KD, SeptemberMorn and Sara thank you for the welcome.

Sara you said something that really strikes me... ACT outgoing... Funny, that's all that I have now-an act to sustain a short term venture. I'm actually quite outgoing, fun to be around with but how do you move past the 'out' part.

I find myself divorced after 11 years with 4 kids, on and off medication and bing drinking. Heck, I finally went to see a therapist this past summer and felt out of place there. I have made another appointment with someone else as I off medication and binging a little too often.

I've been broke by too many circumstances since my childhood to feel like I can ever make sense of me. (Lord, crying now) and all I want is to feel ok in someone else's eyes.

whoa!