I saw my T today and I really began to understand the need to experience our hidden buried emotions. When they are buried, they are in the driver's seat with us not having a chance to control them because we're really not aware or conscious of who's in the driver's seat.
But when we allow them to manifest, we can get a good look at them and have an opportunity to understand where they're coming from. Only then, with some attention and some analysis, will we be able to come to grips with what they're all about.
Then we can begin to control them and control our lives better. We will begin to be in the driver's seat more. We will become more conscious and more awake.
My T suggested that I sit and be quiet and just feel and be attentive to the feeling. Don't fight it, don't judge it, just notice it. When this is done, sometimes some true understanding emerges and we can begin to look at the emotion instead of drowning in it.
I also was overwhelmed with emotion after this session today and I also have felt a higher level of emotions since I started therapy in December. But I believe and I'm experiencing that healing will be the final result of this work and this pain. As I've pointed out in another post, a mother in the throes of childbirth only notices the pain but once the child is in her arms all pain is forgotten and joy is in her heart. That is our future if we hang on and don't give up.