WePow, thank you. I don't want to start yet another thread, but I don't know what's wrong with me. I think it's because I felt a little like T didn't understand some things yesterday. She didn't react the way I wanted her to. I know it's not true, but I felt rejected again. If she doesn't tell me what I want to hear, I feel disappointed. I think that's transference.

I had an upset stomach and stayed in all day. There was something I was going to do. I could have managed to do it, but I didn't. I also worry that I got T sick. I hope I didn't. I think I need to get into my bed and stay there. Oh, yuck. I don't know if I'm discounting the good of the session or what. Why do the parts want T so much now. I have to try to give them what they need, which is love. That's what my T would tell me to do. I just want to cry instead.