This is the first step in acknowledging I have a problem/still have a problem in some cases. I guess once you're an addict/become obsessional with something, you have an ongoing struggle the rest of you life.
Things I’m addicted to:
1. Drugs- I will never do coke again because I’ve had enough experience with it in the past to know it’s more bad than a good time, including the occasional dream about it still; Occasional weed is still appealing to me; excessive drinking I can’t do anymore, only if I get really high and need to cover the symptoms from my bf (which is rare).
2. The internet itself, I have to check out my favorite sites to see any updates.
3. Taking personality types quizzes on blogthings.com and other websites
4. Watching/playing Hentai games
5. Ordering food delivery (this is the trigger for my binges binge purge episodes that I'm about 80% over)
6. Painting my nails
NOTE: I'm not always engaged in one of the items on this list per se. I've gotten myself under control, holding back ordering food, though sometimes it's a struggle because I want to do it quite a lot. I only recently started to have a real problem with the hentai stuff.
Overall, I think I go through phases, at one time I may be more vulnerable and likely to do one of them, but most of the time I am more in control. Once I get started though, it's hard to moderate, and at times I get stuck in an obsessional phase with one or possibly multiple 'vices' of mine at a time.
Last edited by DespondentDaisy; Feb 10, 2011 at 12:04 AM.
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