Do you ever feel like non-therapy people just don't get it? It seems they don't get what the big deal is and why we struggle so much being in therapy. They don't understand how hard this is or why we are up and down with our emotions concerning our therapist. It's like they think, "If it bothers you so much, then why are you going?"

I wish it were that easy. But it's not! I would say that just about every week, I tell myself I am not going back. That is ridiculous! Why can't we get past this? What is it about therapy that has us hooked, yet has us running away at the same time?

I know it is about our emotions that we are not comfortable with. It is about facing things that we have pushed down to avoid feeling the pain and hurt they cause.

I just want to get to a place where I am comfortable saying, "I am in therapy and that's okay." I am not really there, yet. Some days I am, some days I am not. I want to STOP thinking about it all the time. I want to STOP worrying about what my therapist thinks about me, or if I am doing stupid things in therapy, or if I am making a fool of myself, or if I am doing this just for attention.

Why can't I go to my appointments, come home and not think about anything until the next appointment? Why is it constantly on my mind? I want to STOP doing this, but I can't.