I'm so weak and foolish, I cry for no apparent reason.

I want to feel as much pain as I can physically inflict on myself...though I feel none but inside.

I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me I hate me
Coward
crybaby
weak foolish
no good
nobody
I suck
I want to cut
I want to burn my skin...feel the sizzle before numbness
I want to bite, until my jaw locks up from overuse
I want to bleed and hurt
I want to cry
I want to not feel this way
I want to not feel anymore
I want to leave this place and its hells behind
I want to to be happy
I don't want to be alone anymore
I don't want to hurt anymore
I don't want to cry anymore

I don't want to care anymore
I wish I didn't love
I wish I could just hate, turn it all towards myself...
rid the world of hate as I take the hate out on myself
leaving none for anyone else to feel, to suffer through