No, I can't imagine anybody who hasn't been through therapy having any idea what we're going through. I don't tell anybody about it. It's nothing to be ashamed of, yet I don't want anybody to know.
I have the same obsessive thoughts and worries. I think a lot of people in therapy do. Isn't it funny how every feeling about therapy is classified as "normal". It doesn't matter what I say to my T it's "normal".I think you and I may be in the same boat. The hook for me is the unconditional acceptance and care. It's like a drug. I just keep hoping the end result is worth the time spent having therapy occupying my mind. I've decided I'm too invested to quit now. Or so I say. I know I could never walk away from that care. Rumor has it that it gets better in time and it's the road to recovery. Hmm... I'm not so sure that was supportive. Maybe I'm best as a lurker, lol. But I do understand where you are coming from. I hope you get things figured out.