thats the same way with me & alcohol kicked every one of em out of my life i dont care if theyre family or what a lot of people around here have overdosed on this & that in the past 10 years & i see more headed in the same direction i had a t appt yesterday & was remembering a cruise ship i went on 8 years ago (party barge) & there were 13 bars & always somebody with booze thankfully it was a lot of senior people & it was a canadian cruise cuz i couldnt handle a full blown young people party til u puke ur brains out cruise had enuff of that **** in my alky years lol one time i was watchin dr phil & there were these girls that thought it was cute to post pics of themselves at their drunkest most strung out moments laying on cold bathroom floors bent over the toilet for my Lords sake i have enuff of those memories in my head without bein stupid enuff to put it on the internet. for you younger people i know they have all their pretty ads everywhere yeah its real pretty when ur layin in detox with shakes sweats dts pukes & that goes with any drug been there done it & it wasnt just a one time hole i my Lord helped me out of it took quite a few relapses then substituting crack for the booze just one long waste of days & years! & one other thing i saw one time on an ER type show where it was the "wild week" at one college & this guy was doin liquor thru a beer bong & he had alky poisoning & seizures so bad they were callin in liquid ativan from other hospitals to stop seizures & keep him alive alot of his college people were there & the look in their faces was total shock which is what they needed cuz at that age u think u dont die. whether or not it stuck i dunno hopefully so but just a lot more nightmares than good times with all of this junk!