Yeah, I can relate to these feelings, Squiggle! I don't tell too many people I'm in therapy. I feel weird, I guess embarrassed about it, especially being in it so many years. It's another world and I agree that only those in it too, understand.

Who'd ever think we'd need a whole forum on therapy? LOL. Not so funny, but why can't we just do it and not have to struggle with it, analyze it to pieces, etc. Why is it so difficult? Some people don't agonize over therapy so much. I think those of us who need/want the intimacy/love we get from our Ts are the ones who struggle the most. If I just didn't CARE so much about my T I'd be better off. If we didn't HAVE to have a relationship and get to know each other so well. It's the "agony and the ecstasy" to me. It's crazy, as others have said. Therapy takes on a life of its own.

I think I tried to explain about this forum to my T, how popular it is and how much there is to talk about therapy. She sort of understood because she's been in therapy too.

I wish therapy weren't constantly on my mind also. It takes over, and shouldn't. My Ts have told me that. Therapy is important but is not your whole life. But the feelings are so strong. I understand, Squiggle. Wish I had a solution, though.