I woke up early and did yoga this morning--really thought I was going to have a good day. On the way out of the house, I went to take out the garbage and the bag leaked all over the floor. I got really pissed off and yelled.....after that I felt tense and aggressive all day. I think it's because I just increased my does of lamictal from 25 to 50 milligrams and need to get used to it. I can't wait until I am at my full dose and things level out again.

Work wasn't bad--I am the office manager at a small dental office and I like it. Right after work I went to babysit, and the kids were sick. One of them puked all over the floor, which wasn't really a big deal. When I was getting them ready for bed, I discovered that the cat had diarrhea in one of the boys' rooms. UGH!!!!!

Combined with feeling tense and a bit anxious, I also cried a couple of times today. I was just feeling sad and really missing my ex husband, even though we haven't been together for three years. I also started thinking negatively, feeling like a failure, and having thoughts about how I will never get better and how depression has really taken a huge toll on me and my life for the past few years. I wouldn't say I felt suicidal, but it wasn't good. I know I will feel better tomorrow if I can get to sleep soon.

Thanks for listening. Just needed to get it all out. I am grateful to have this board as a place to come where people will understand what I'm going through.