I guess I'm different. I don't spend much time worrying about my relationship with my t. I don't spend a lot of time analyzing everything he says and does. I just don't worry about those things.

I don't talk about my therapy with outsiders much. Mainly because why would the subject come up in normal conversation. I don't hide it either. It just doesn't come up.

What I do do is think about what we are discussing in my therapy. I journal about it and then I'm able to put it aside, live my life, and wait until the next time I see my t.

I guess I just don't stress about my therapy. My life outside of his office is busy and stressful enough. I don't worry about my sessions between sessions.

When I do need my therapist between sessions, I have no qualms about calling him, scheduling an additional session or talking to him on the phone. I rest in the knowledge that he is there for me with consistency. Ours is a calm, trustful, consistent relationship that I really trust entirely.

I feel bad for those of you that struggle so much with your relationships with your t's. I wish for you that you could just trust in that relationship and not have all the ruptures. If your t's are worth their weight, you can trust them to be looking out for your welfare and not spend so much energy worrying about that. And I do think they are worth their weight, but you have to learn to trust in that.