I'm in therapy and taking medication (Zoloft) for anxiety and OCD, and being treated for hypersomnia (Nuvigil). I have gradually been losing weight since I started the Zoloft 1 year ago, and lost even more when I started taking Nuvigil 4 months ago. I'm now underweight and people criticize me all the time about my thinness. I'm not working out or dieting, and I'm definitely not trying to lose weight. I don't know why it's happening.
Last week, my doctor cut down my Zoloft dosage by half (100mg to 50) to combat the weight loss, to gradually wean me off it. If this doesn't work, they'll cut back on the Nuvigil, too. I can't go off the sleep medication; I sleep up to 14 hours a day without it. But I need the antidepressant too...I'm worried. Haha, worried, get it? Anxiety joke...yeah.
I'm now 25, and I weigh 100 lbs. I can't lose any more weight. I need my medications to function in everyday life. I actually teach middle school, and I love my job. But I hate that being so thin could negatively affect the kids I teach.
When I try to talk to my coworkers and family, they always make fun of my size, weight, etc. I couldn't care less if people gossip about me, because I'm not trying to lose weight and be all Top Model. I know I'm not bulimic or anything. And I'm touched they are concerned about me and my health. But they would never criticize a normal-sized woman so harshly to her face; it's insensitive. I have no one to talk to and I'm starting to hate my body for alienating me from everyone else. I'm becoming depressed and (even more) withdrawn. Not to mention, anxious about possibly backsliding when I go off my medications. Help.
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