It's a good question...and i can relate. It has been less then a year since diagnosed...and...of course at first i didn't believe it at all...now it changes from one day to the next. I struggle with med compliance aswell, partially because i feel better...and so i go off them. Only to discover i am not better at all. I dont know if it's bi-polar...i mean...when i am off medications bad things happen and i cry and get angry and want to isolate myself...but when i am on medications i just feel like oh whatever who cares.With the who cares additude though comes an inability to feel any real emotions. Accept anger. I guess when it comes down to it...i can track my highs and lows basically from my teen years...but hell..maybe everyone else can too.