Back&forth,

It is very important for you to realize that "YOU" are worth it. When I was desparate this year to find help....it ended up costing me too....no sliding scale with her either. I went to her when I needed her the most & then after I wasn't desparate any more, I was able to go back to the psychologist I had before that takes just the medicare I have & doesn't cost me anything. This is always an option knowing that the desparate time is not a permanent condition. It is also important for you to realize that ED isn't anything to fool around with.....it can end up serious without even realizing it sometimes.....& you really wouldn't want to go through the severe treatment.

I have problems with ED even though it isn't completely based on "body image" issues....but when I start loosing weight (because of med reactions, medical illness, stress, or whatever) I just can't seem to stop it. I do have a desire to be thin & end up too thin even in my own eyes.

I have been one of those severly starved anorexic's a couple of times. The first time (9 years ago) I was 19 lbs underweight & the pdoc I had at the time located an ED hospital that decided I had to be there for the psychological treatments. I had no insurance to pay nor the money.....so the hospital had funds for people like that. I was there for a month & it really did no good so for the next year I was in & out of the medical hospital having to have central lines with IV nutrition.

The last time was at the beginning of this year (11 lbs underweight) when I was dealing with a trauma & my Mothers death. My GP decided to admit me to the medical hospital (medicare paid for that) & have central line IV nutrition. I had to sneek out of the hospital AMA for my Mothers funeral because the hospitals pdoc told me I would he was going to put me on a 72 hour hold if I didn't agree to the central line immediately & I wouldn't have been able to be at my mothers funeral. I did go back into the hospital for the central line after the funeral & when I was finally discharged, my Dr's wanted me to go to a treatment center where the medical help would be there when I needed it....but the centers told me they couldn't help me with the trauma.....& none of the trauma centers knew how to help me with the trauma I went through....so I had to find a psychologist who knew how to help me with both issues along with my mothers death NO MATTER WHAT THE COST.

Please remember "YOU ARE DEFINITELY WORTH IT NO MATTER WHAT THE $",
Debbie