I am not okay. I am going to try for one more month of short term disability, maybe that will help. I've missed work 3 days in a row now.
My head is so full right now, it just does not stop.

It seems like every time I am a little low, the flood gates open and the past comes rushing in. I am trying to let it go, but it is holding on to me so tight.

I am alone and scared and I don't want to remember anymore.

I keep telling myself it is the past and that I am safe now, I don't feel safe.

Why does it still hurt so much?

There is screaming in my head. His words are all I hear, part of me still believes them too much to counter them. I can feel it in my body, the things he did,

I feel like I'm going crazy