I am so glad to hear that you are getting the help that you need. I have gone through the central line TPN nutrition just reacently at the beginning of this year. I can relate to your feelings of it going into your body because food just can't be eaten.......then having to have the sugar level tests constantly to control the sugar level because of the sugar in the nutrition & needing insuline shots to control that. Being told that you will be dead within a few days is hard to deal with too. I went AMA before the hold could be put on in order to go to my Mothers funeral & went back into the hospital a few days after the funeral when I collapsed.

I know that physical damage can be done to our bodies, but with taking in the nutrition, hopefully with no more damage, what there is you can now control. It has to be hard when you are dealing with all the personal BF issues you were dealing with. I know that stress for me causes weight loss even without the desire to be thin. I can still look in the mirror & see a walking skeleton even though it isn't as bad as it was. Your description is right on.

I am glad that the "dad' situation is improved & your kids have a safe place until you are well enough to care for them. I know I don't have young kids anymore.....but I do have a year old filly (my baby horse) who makes my life worth living especially now that I am getting a divorce after 30 years. My filly is the best incentive for me to stay well enough to care for her again with passing out (& passing out around horses is very dangerous let alone it scares them too). I look at my filly & can't imagine anyone else having her if I wasn't around for her. I am sure that your kids are what make your life worth living too & are a great incentive for you to keep going so no more health damage can happen to their Mom, realizing how they would feel without you being there for them too.

I know it has to be hard dealing with all the things that are going on with your body while it tries to adapt back to it's normal state......but taking one step at a time with alot of determination to be there well for your kids......you have to be proud of yourself that you are successfully fighting the illness.

Keep up the good work for yourself & your kids,
Debbie