im gonna think & pray about this tonight cuz rite now im not so inspired in this area btw in my college years i was the exact same way if it means anything i would have sex buddies a guy who wanted somethin to do with me & would be good to me i would push away almost like i felt i didnt deserve to have anything more than to be used. im a little older almost 37 & have been thru an abusive 12 year marriage im still trying to get out of WOW u really got me to thinkin bout why i cant have divorce like yesterday. tired & will go read Bible some more as when i commune with God he speaks & says thats exactly why im not givin ya this or that rite rite now just be kind & easy with yourself cuz i can relate to a lot of stuff u say. will have more to say tomorrow