your T's suggestion is right on the mark. by your knowing what depresses you is correct. there is no other way this can help you help your boys too until you do this. you need to do this in the order of priority. you first need to focus on self and find the remedy. i feel you are so focused on keeping up a good face to them it diverts you from your primary purpose. once you help yourself then and only then can you be the mom you want to be. i want this for you.  but that is the equation for you, to have self worth rather than feeling such a failure. only then can you help your boys. you are not being a "bad" person by getting well first, CSC.
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
Last edited by madisgram; Feb 10, 2011 at 09:43 AM.
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