I know it's uncomfortable to be and to feel vulnerable (do I ever!), but it really is OK to feel safe with your T. Feeling safe there is a sign of trust, that you do feel safe to trust your T, and this is good. Maybe try to focus on the feeling of being safe that you have there and hold on to that, let it comfort you.....and let yourself believe that it really is OK to trust your T and have that bond. If you need to, can you call and just touch base, have a bit of contact....since next Friday seems so far away?