icecream is right. alcoholics anonymous. perhaps detox too. google AA, go to the home page, look or put in your location and country and meetings in your area will show up. please try to give this a go. you can't do it alone or with your willpower. you need support from others, particulary from those who have achieved sobriety. as for your other medical problems, i'd suggest you share this with your doctor and get his advice re what medical treatment is available. i'd strongly suggest u tell him your suicidal thoughts. i'm glad u posted and wish you well. you can get well. please keep us posted. we care 
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