Beautiful_Pain,

I don't think you are a coward at all--- there is nothing cowardly about feeling scared, lonely or sad.

I'm sorry you feel excluded. Hope you can feel some acceptance here. I think you are a very nice person and am so glad you are here-- even in your sadness-- you took the time to post to me--- that was thoughtful and I appreciated it very much.

You are welcome to PM me-- you won't be bothering me at all, or if it's more comfortable for you, posting is good too-- we're here-- listening.

Please-- take care.
Thinking of you

mandy