give yourself a big pat on the back for taking the first step by calling to make an appointment! Things can only get better if we take some steps towards fixing the issues so it's a really good step. In the mean time i have a really great site if your in the US you can click on your state and get the numbers for helplines in your area http://www.suicidehotlines.com/ dont get scared off by the "suicide help line" there are ALOT of other things they have numbers for like getting help with making appointments, doctors in your area, other services. Anyways in combination with that remember were here too! Feel free to vent anytime we have all been there at some point where we just needed to get it out. Oh and welcome to the site!