Well ... as I guess is obvious I am a little bit of a yo-yo about meds n stuff.

But I have had some really good results taking paxil of late, I had the dose at 30mg (which isn't that high? but it helped a lot). Anyway, I got a *lot* better over a short period of time, like maybe 3 months in total (the last few weeks were the best after upping the dose) and would go so far as to say that I am almost back to normal.

Soooo I stopped taking it for a few reasons, i just think i should be fine without drugs (if not much of a drug helped a lot) and also i feel i am on top of things again, i have quite a busy/stressful job and finally it is going really well, with my manager suggesting yesterday a promotion is possible soon. also it might sound lame but i want to have a few drinks and stuff with my friends/family over new years and new years is a time that we maybe party in a few other ways that wouldnt really be good with ADs.

so ive been good the last couple of weeks without any ADs. the only thing i have had in the last few days or so is weird random just kinda losing it a bit and getting upset/crying. luckily it has just been when i have been by myself, little things being too upsetting. EVERYTHING else is fine, my concentration etc. its nothing like being 'depressed' as i was kinda before.

i just want to know what some good strategies are to not get into the crying phase and make sure it doesnt get any worse. i am kinda enjoying life more again and i dont want to end up a mess and if i can stop this symptom right now that would be good.

so ... maybe its not really a drug question but ... what do people do if they just *start* feeling ugggh? do you distract yourself or exercise or what?

i would really appreciate some advice ...

thank you