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Originally Posted by Eileen2010
I need to have an agenda though, I have found that out. If I don't know for sure what we'll be talking about then I get really anxious.
I do have a hard time worrying about what T thinks of me. I need him to tell me he doesn't think I am a freak...a lot. lol. But he obliges, when I leave his office and when he responds to email, he always says it... "I don't think you're a freak, Eileen". Silly how a little phrase calms my fears for several days.
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Lately, I always bring my journal notes with me. It does ease my anxiety and my therapist sees it as a positive thing for me to do. It works very well for both of us.
I also need for her to reassure me that I am not weird, strange, odd, or a freak! She is always telling me to stop labeling myself with such negative things. She reminds me that I have to learn that nothing I do or say in therapy is anything to be ashamed of, and I need to stop worrying that I am the only one who thinks or acts that way.
She replied to an email today and said, "
You need to do what YOU need to do to heal. Even if YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE who does it that way!!"
She went on to say that as long as I am not harming myself in anyway, or doing anything that she feels is not in my best interest, I should go with my gut feeling and do what I feel to do. She is there as my guide, not as a person who dictates what I should or shouldn't do.
Now I have to believe that she means what she says, and go for it!
