no I don't miss the voices that I had with DID that are no longer there.
Each time I remember a separated memory and put coping tools in place so that I would no longer be triggered into the rerunning of that memory piece the voices that came with that memory piece also no longer reran from being triggered.
Each time I felt more calm, quite, free and able to do more things.
The reason I don't miss these voices is because they aren't gone. My memories can't be erased. But they are now stored as a part of my conscious memory so the voices no longer rerun at random. I have access to the information the voices contained but you might as well say the volume is set at mute and rewind/play from triggers has been disconnected.
Now just like normal memories I can visit that memory consciously by thinking about them. I dream and hope for the day when I no longer hear the voices and switch into the memory pieces of DID.
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