I'm sorry you went through that with your T. I feel like I am becoming too attached to my T, and my biggest fear is that he is going to start rejecting me. It must be so painful to be hurt by someone who you rely on for so much.

I know you say you don't want to get into a new relationship with a T right now, but give it time. You will heal from this eventually and I think you should continue the work you started with this T. And you may have new things to process and deal with revolving around what you are going through with this T.

I hope you can find some peace soon