good for u CSC. you are reaching out for help. please keep us posted. sorry haven't pm'ed u back yet. i will, promise. proud of you. ptsd is very debilitating. we start believing what they say derogatory to us. you need to dig deep inside yourself to ward off those false beliefs about yourself. they are not real. i call it mind control and we become POW'S. keep working on this with your T. ask for feedback from him or ways you can ward off these thoughts and replace real beliefs about yourself. try to make an asset list re the things you have achieved or done. examples-you are a kind person (and u are). you have shown courage to reach out to get better. you are a caring person. you are a sick person trying to get well-and u are whether u know it or not. you came to pc to find suuport. you are not prideful, one of the seven deadly sins,etc. when u feel yourself feeling negative about yourself re-read the asset/affirmation list. this repitition of reinforcing your positive,true knowledge bout self can drown out the negative. hang in there. it will get better.you'll have to trust me on this. i've been there and i have a wonderful life now with the eforts i made and the suppot i received from my T and my friends.u have us here too..never forget that. we care about you even tho it's here at pc.