Hi Disenchanted and welcome to PC. There are a whole lot of people here who understand what you're going through right now. Don't be sorry that you can't offer encouragement right now; for each of us, there are times when we can give support and times when we must accept support.

Everyone here has good advice; give yourself a chance to take it in, think about it and make a plan to help you get through the next couple of weeks.

I know it seems as if your life is f****d up, and maybe it is a little bit; and all the good advice in the world isn't going to fix it today. But if you dig deep, you will find the strength that has taken you through the ups and downs of your life, and that will get you through again.

Listen to the wisdom on these pages, remember that you are not defined by an illness, forgive yourself for your pain and remind yourself over and over that it will get better. And it will; there are a whole lot of people here who are living proof.
Hugs