I would give this illness up in a heart beat. It takes up my time, finances and energy to manage it. I would rather spend that time and money elsewhere. I have been doing a good job at managing the illness, but I just get sick of taking the pills, making sure I get to bed on time, going to to the psychiatrist and therapist. I struggle with finding a relationship, because I'm scared of the "I have BP discussion". At times I live my life smaller than I normally would because I know that certain actions may trigger the BP.

I'm feeling depressed right now, so sorry to be a Debbie Downer wah-wah