This scares me as I enter parenthood.

Oh, I can't even imagine the fright, Jennie.

I opted not to be a mother...I was afraid to raise a child because I didn't think I was capable. But you will be a good mom because you are working on healing.

I remember the first time I was triggered by a watching a child. I was having my hair cut and a little girl was waiting for her mother. She was doing cheerleader routines and watching herself in the mirror. She was so cute.

I asked the mother how old she was and she said eleven. I couldn't believe my eyes. I always thought I was so much older at eleven. I realized at that time the magnitude of what happened to me.