I am in some bad shape...trying to take away from all my hurts from the past I have involved myself in areas I should never enter.
Currently, I am having difficulties staying off of WorldWinner which is a game site. The problem is, it is a betting site and over the past month I have lost roughly about $1200. I am trying to get myself in check. It is just that I withdrawl from everything around me and just play game after game in some kind of hope that I want have to live in the present to feel the pain of the past.
I really need to stop this "addiction" if you will.

I kind of took a mini vacation from my trauma work. Now I am back into it and still find the need to escape from the way I feel.
I can be fine one minute and the next minute feel like life must end. It is very frustrating to me to be like this.