I would give it up, I wish that I didn't have these problems at all. I don't think bipolar disorder makes me who I am, I feel it complicates me and prohibits me from fully being who I am. I can think back to childhood, before any problems started showing and I was a caring, creative, sensitive, social, intelligent, intuitive, pleasant little kid. Those are the qualities I like about myself and I feel those are the qualities bipolar disorder has impeded.

BUT, I am grateful for my life experience. I think that one day, once I've proven to myself that I've stabilized enough that I can live through episodes without needing crisis intervention, or self-harming, that I would like to learn how to be a peer support.