Hm, yeah, I think if I could remember what it was like before then I might want to change. But I barely remember anything from my childhood except a few choice memories and things that people tell me :\

So, really, this person that I am with BP is who I have always known myself as, and will always remember myself as, so there's nothing to turn back to for me. And I would never want to change who I am, no matter how difficult it is for me to live this way.
I also wouldn't change for fear of forgetting what it feels like now, and how strong I've become, I wouldn't want to give that up for anything. Even though it does affect all aspects of my life, especially relationships, I know that if they can't accept me for who I am even with the illness, I wouldn't want them in my life at all.

It's interesting to hear everbody's different view point, and the different things that would affect our decisions.