Thankyou all for your replies

Mandypaige... I hear you loud and clear when you say [Feeling like you're not living up to your potential?] i certainly do not feel i am living up to my potential, my brain is working but my body's given up! i am soo missing my old life, teaching young children, exploring new places, travelling, rock climbing, just being independent, being able to chose when i wake up or if i want to have a bath each morning. I just can't get my head around the fact my life has changed so dramatically over the past few years from owning a pre school nursery to being so dependent on a carer to get me bathed, dressed etc! its like i am grieving for the life i have lost

Hi Lee, [I can't work (disabled) me too so there are days I don't do a darned thing. Those are few & far between cause I don't want to get into the habit of doing that or my old bones will set up too i try to do stuff but like yesterday my body just refuses to co operate then i give myself a hard time-- but I think it's good for us to pamper ourselves once in awhile too true, guess i have been so tied up trying to fight for my rights that i have overlooked this lately. I'm assuming you ARE on an antidepressant, aren't you?? nope i have had some horrific allergies from antidepressents in the past so my doc now believes that if he says i am not depressed enough times it will just go away!!

madisgram.... you could well be right, brain shutdown , overloaded! sounds very much like me!! too much fighting the system to get my home adapted, fighting to get a recognised diagnosis which portrays my symptoms, fighting for a physio to atleast keep me as able as i am, fighting just to get upstairs to the loo/bath or to bed every night...... the list goes on and on and on!!!!

Thankyou all again for taking time to reply