Kacey, I'm glad you decided to call. I'm so sorry you couldn't just get to speak to T and cut out all the horrible waiting. Do you remember what you said in your message? If it sounded confused or gave mixed signals, I wonder whether it would be a good idea to leave a further message which sounds 'wise mind' and really clear, saying that you know you asked him not to contact you, but on reflection you don't want it to end like this and you're feeling [feelings] and you'd very much like him to call you so you can work on this together. Just so he's clear that he wouldn't be violating your (relatively formal) email request that he doesn't contact you again?

Keep breathing. Can you distract yourself while you wait?

Here waiting with you <3