dunno what u mean by its official me&hubby of almost 12 years r separated it is so confusing lonely depressing then some days r better rite now i think the cold hard lonely winter has got some to do with it both of us went to cash tax refund today since if we filed joint we got a lot more back well so he says who knows who cares its just money my dad lives with me but he works evenings & doesnt get home til 8pm its like when hubby & i r apart & do stuff we get along better he has anger problems he needs counseling for & over the holidays when i let him move back that didnt last long cuz he drank again & then that leads to drugs. hes building a place & 3 yr old says maybe when its finished mommy can come & live with us i know breaks ur heart but then kids dont understand why mommy has to break away the verbal abuse & not knowing if or when hes gonna drink im just sooo tired & i dunno the words i see people drive by or when im walkin i see people doin their thing & its like this i feel left out feeling im really sleepy but if i nap rite now i wont sleep tonite everything just seems sucky rite now i guess things will get better